final stretch

well...on the final stretch, the hardest week of them all. harder than loosing a team member, harder than having to run things solo. these past two days have been rough. i guess its from the lack of sleep, added to the more lack of sleep, and work in between. i know im tired. i know i need to sleep, but i feel so numb right now. i dont feel tired, pain, hungry, or even hot/cold. a strange feeling i guess, but i would rather feel nothing for the next week, not feeling stressed or frustrated. i dont know anymore. its the last weekend. everyone is gone either with family or friends visiting. camp seems so dead and bare. im ready. finish this week. seems like i've only taken 2 steps and have ten thousand more to go...its been nine weeks. only one more...hopefully i keep this numb feeling...i wish...